I presume you are reading this on some form of technology. A smartphone perhaps of the Apple origin or just generally an up to date modern piece of technology...
Within that tiny piece of metal it has access to all of our accounts which have within it what we present ourselves to be to the public, polished pristine humans with plenty of money, food and objects of which we truly do not need.. But we deem them necessary to our existence.
Hand Puppets. Capitalism. The primary example of manipulation. We see what we want, we take on jobs which add nothing to our character to be able to afford these menial objects and the karma cycle continues. The more money we earn the more we want and the manufacturers of products know this and continue to show us our desires and explain that all we need to do to be thinner, have a beautiful home/ car is to buy this product which is essential in bettering our unnecessary existence. But this is just puppetry. The hand up the arse of a glove, the starting point of manipulation.
The lustful craving of the unnesecary, making us believe that this product will make our lives easier than what we already have.
But that is not it, we see celebrities on snapchat, Instagram Facebook indorcing all of these brands, scantily dressed, losing themselves to the control of money. The puppeteer being the first acting job, the first taste of money, pulling these humans in all directions making them become a shadow of what they formerly were. Making them inanimate and their stories known to the public through a specifically altered angle of a camera lense, being told what to wear, to eat....
This form of puppetry to me is ventriloquism.. If you own a percentage of a persons a soul, they will say what you and the public want to say. The puppeteer says dance, you will see them on some form of television show exploiting themselves to the Rhythm of a samba. Let's be honest, for the right price most people will be bought and I think it's an art form when you can control a human being.
And from that point my next is a mix of two forms of puppetry, these being Shadow and Stringed and when I explain these, it is in the context of relationships with other human beings, within a normal aspect, I.e, no money involved, no manager, just platonic or sexual relations.
Humanity is a race which predominantly has recessive or dominant beings, obviously there are grey areas to this argument but generally this idea is true. These being stronger and weaker people. And in our lives we need the balance in order to maintain healthy relationships. But we do clash if there are people extremely alike or on completely opposite ends of the spectrum..so if we envisioned this it would be like the laws of magnetic energy.(Google the basic idea of you need too)
But as humans we are social beings who need to be surrounded by a pack which lifts us and provides positives. As in order to achieve we need to believe and have support etc.
In every relationship their is always a stronger one more upbeat, more vivacious one and a weaker, individual.
But what happens when they lose interest? Well this is quite obvious the pack becomes diffused, unable to carry on as it gives the impression of a wound. They are somewhat broken..
And to fix this is takes work.
This work is essentially taken on by the individuals, they will change their appearance, their outlooks, their life goals. Or this can be done by another telling them or showing them what to change. They will provide the basics to bring new life to an old act.
But my main question is, is this truly a viable aspect? Because as recessive wounded member, they seem to be tossed from person to person, losing parts of themselves and just becoming a mere shadow of what they were.As they try to change themselves in order to become better, they are merely just casting a shadow of what they want people to see, not who they truly are...somebody else is pulling the strings to maintain who they were, but in fact they are altering It.
My main reason for writing this is to express that I myself am a victim of this performance and in all aspects can relate. I currently feel the gloom of being someone who I am not in order to please another. I fumble stumble across this stage of a life in order to appease others and it is so tiresome. I feel as if I am not an autonomous creature at the moment and that I am anticipating the end waiting for my strings to be set free. But when this comes I am not sure whether I'll be able to function without this dominant being.
I am confessing to the fact that I am a puppet. Controlled in all aspects. I let him control me I let him believe that I am less than I am. He tells me that I am not once the person who he believed me to be, then surely I am not.
As a 21 year old woman living in the 21st century I understand that I have the ability to do what I want with all my options, equality and intelligence. But I still feel 15 year old Beth being told how to act, what to say, what to do. I also know that I have no control over my recessive side at this current moment and that I am struggling, so I will accept his invitation to play God and decide our fate. As it is the easiest route. And I am no longer strong enough to say when the end is.
But what I will say is, is that you have more than likely read this. And I am a coward to say this to you personally, but please. If you no longer need me do not string me along as I am not your toy. I am not a prize which you can show off to your friends and not am I weak. I am just suffering at this current time within myself. And although I want you, I do not want you to feel like you have to make me perform.
I am a puppet and a shadow of whom I once was, but I do not need an unwilling puppeteer as an owner. I need to be wanted. I want to act and sing and perform out of love, not out of duty.
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