When I see you, I see a confused man shrouded by a darkness.
Not only this, but also insecurity and sadness. All these are things which you hide from those around you, but for some reason I see them clearly.
Whether you are aware of this, I do not know, as you are just a man who has learned from tradition to ignore or bury these feelings.
You seem constantly lost in thought and unaware of not only your feelings but the world around you.
You see a small town and do not think of the joy which this once brought you. But you see the distant memories of times which were all forgotten all until you stepped into this waste land.
This place for you is not home anymore, for what once was your home is now covered in the decaying mental images of a time when you were happy.
Which understandably would haunt your stay here.
We see that you are in pain and that you somehow cannot express this and we see that deep deep down you need to outlet this. But how to do so is unknown.
But apart from this I also see strength, compassion and warmth. A caring soul who is just tired from the constant heartbreaks in his life.
And what I am trying and pleading with you to show is, well, something.
Your circumstances may have changed, but I love you, as does your family and friends and this love varies in many ways from the maternal, familial, unconditional and eternal.
And we want you to have mental clarity in some way, shape or form as we care and understand that you are currently broken.
Although your life will never be the same as it once was, we will help you piece it back together. Regardless of the collateral damage, to us and to me that is irrelevant. Whatever we can do to help we will do.
I understand it maybe hard to express the words which paint the inside of your head when you close your eyes at night, or whether you are even able to catch even the slightest instance of sleep...
But we are here to help and we would never want you to feel as if no one is there for you, when in fact all we think about is your well being.
So please, although this town brings nothing but sorrow to you, please understand that one day, you will learn to accept this new path which your life has unexpectedly taken and that this was not your fault, nor no ones.
All you can do is learn to live this life as happily, responsibly and as diligently as you can as this is the only way to remain functionality and although I may not speak for all I will help as much as I can to fix this.
